Belonging to something
Journal Entry: Thu Apr 17, 2008, 4:50 PM
- Listening to: Morbid Angel - Suffocation
- Reading: Petri Nets for System Engineering
- Watching: Jumber & Darker Than Black
- Playing: Fire Emberled
- Eating: Shawerma (Saudi Food)
- Drinking: Budwieser Fruit Flavored
it's all began when i have opened my eyes that day to find my self in a position that i expected but never wanted it, to realize that i have became something i shouldn't be , so cold and cruel , man with no patience , a man who had reached the cliff of his silence , overreacting , and absorbed one , after all these days when my head was raised above and my eyes was glaring at the hope that had made the best part of me , when i used to know how to believe in something people can't perceive , that sun in the gazing sky had set already , and the moon that supposed to take the wheel and appears has not moved an inch , i was lost waiting , waiting with my head slowly fallen , my eyes began to see the ground crumblings ,the sunlight that used to give all the colors to my eyes escaped with no grace , everything has turned to gray , when people are cold and blind my mind just doesn't accept what the eyes just see , every sense of my body started to believe in its own way and its own direction of illusion ,a disturbance , a tranquillizing ... a disappointment and a mourning , i never spoke about anything i ever wanted , not to mention that vicious scream asking for silence , this world i'm living is too cold to be felt , too stoned to move on , and too much deceiving , everything that you see just slide away in seconds , masks keep falling , i don't know if the sky stopped raining or it's just us , we were the ones whom have became too senseless to feel it , what is it that we've became , why this whole inside never gets to the gone , dreaming of lies , every time we wonder , we just find a muting answer , where do we belong ? why the ones we want leave smiling , who invited this new friend that is called PAIN , we should think thousand time before we look at the mirror , are we satisfied with who, we have became , selfishness ... authority abusing their powers , money ... we are lost in a maze , an endless greed of temptations , sacrificing had changed to a suicide , those who shall be giving and sacrificing had ended up laying and dreaming , in other world suffering smiling , thinking about the things he wants ... the things he ruins , where do we belong again !? yeah still this question pops-up evertime i look into the mirror , again we are lost waiting , waiting for answers for these question that killing us ... and killing me .
Devious Comments
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Jeremiah 17:9
"The heart is deceitful above all things and beyond cure. Who can understand it?"
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xxx
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